Wednesday, February 13, 2013

In a rut.

I'm currently in a rut.

Spiritually.

Physically.

Emotionally.

In a rut.

I haven't been in the Word like I should. In prayer like I should. Working out like I should. Cooking like I should. Blogging/spending time on uplifting hobbies like I should.

I've been trying to figure out why, but I'm not sure. It's like the holidays were SO crazy that afterward I just crashed and haven't gotten up. 

I know that the most important...actually wait, ONLY important part of this equation is my relationship with God. Which then affects all other areas of my life. Lately I've been just fitting it in. Reading God's Word and praying when I have time. Which is ridiculous.

I can't just give God snippets of my day. He is the holy God of the universe who gave me life and gave me salvation. I live to bring Him glory. 

I want to love Him more than anything. Love Him more than I love my sweet husband. 
Which honestly, I don't know if I can claim right now.

So I just want to take this moment to confess my lack of faith and commitment. 

And to praise the Lord for saving a wretch like me. His mercies are new EVERY morning, and tomorrow is a new day.


Ashley

10 comments:

  1. i have definitely have those ruts for sure. could be the holidays could be something else and despite not being into reading, God still wants you to read, He knows your heart isn't into it but He wants you in it nonetheless. And you are right thank goodness He has grace and mercy and forgiveness towards someone like me but He knows I need it

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  2. It happens, girl. What is great is that you recognize it and know you need a change. Have you thought about getting together with some girlfriends and doing a weekly or biweekly group study? I had been feeling this way and a few of us are getting together. It is really helping me stay accountable and slowly but surely not feeling like a chore but a desire again :)

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  3. Thanks for sharing Sweetie. I'll be praying! I completely understand too well what you're saying! "This too shall pass." Post-Christmas blahs are common. Yay for new morning mercies!!!Spring is coming!

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  4. You could join many, many other Christians like myself in celebrating Lent. Today is the first day. It will give you a start-point and goal.

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  5. oh girl, its a slippery slope. I think God allows us to get there so that we want to rely even more on Him seeing that apart from those little steps we take to stay in in His presence daily we are completely weak in our own strength and independence. Be encouraged girl this is "common to all man"... Your in my prayers!!

    ♥CheChe

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  6. Hi Ashley, thanks for sharing this. All I was thinking, reading your words, was - 'let go of the should's'... God is not a 'should', he is our freedom, joy and delight. If you can't make dedicated time for him, remember that ALL your time is his and you are in his presence at all times. Brother Lawrence's book, The Practice Of The Presence Of God (it's such a classic you might have read it before, but may be worth a re-read) is a great reminder that he found God as present in his dishwashing as he did at prayer :)
    Every blessing, Susanne

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  7. I think we all can relate. Thank you for your transparency - it was encouraging to me this morning as I was getting on my blog instead of getting in the Word. I'm realizing more and more that God doesn't need my time, but He knows how much I need His. Sending a prayer your way this morning!

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  8. I love this.. you make me feel real and HUMAN!! I too have been in this rut and I know its no ones fault but mine. I feel better knowing that I am God's mess and he works on me every day!

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  9. I am right there with you! I'm sure you'll get back in the swing of things soon! Such a refreshing post, and a good reminder that I need to get my bootie back in gear too! :o)

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  10. Ive been in this rut for 2 weeks. It feels awful.

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